A Really Old Poem (warning: emo level is over nine thousand)

Well, I thought I'd upload the oldest poem I have left. It's pretty unrefined, compared to my other work, I think it's pretty bad. Probably not that good in general... But I might as well post it anyways. Oh, and read the thread title carefully.

It’s sad to be wished dead,
Especially by those who are close.

Do you have nightmares,
Of your death?
Or are they death wish dreams of hope?

How many times have you heard "I wish you were dead"?
I have heard that phrase too many times.

Even my own family wishes me dead,
They might not say those words,
But the truth screams louder than any voice.

Its sad, I know,
But I wonder why,
What have I done,
Why am I cursed?

I thought they loved me,
Or could even care,
But wrong I was, my biggest fear.

I understand everyone wants me dead.
If that’s true, then why don’t you,
Stop denying the painful truth.

The dark truth breaks my heart,
My hopes shattered, dreams destroyed.
Such cold words are thrown at me,
cutting deeper than any blade.

Hurt harder than any pain known to man kind,
And all because I am me.
Tell me, what’s wrong with me?
Why can't I be loved?
All family does and should,
Once I hoped this to be true.

But I was deadly wrong,
So wrong it'l cost me my life,
My blood pooling in a circle of pain.

Around my pale, slowly dying body,
Seeping and flowing to my feet.
I'll smile in glee,
I'll slit my wrists, cuts so deep.
Fall forever into sleep,
Darkness coming, closing in for my soul,
filled to the brim with darkness and sin.

I’ll fade into death...

Close my eyes and bleed me dry,
Leave my corpse alone to lie.
Bury me down six foot deep,
Gone forever for eternal sleep.

This is my dream, my only wish,
To fade into death, slice into my flesh.
One day soon, this day will come,
But none will care, noone will weep.

This is destiny, my sad fate,
To disappear, without a trace.
Noone wants me alive,
Infact, neither do I.

I'll vanish from this world, I don't need your farewells.
My blood will drain, along with the lies you all tell.
You all don't care, you never did,
So I'll fade away, fade into death.

Yes, I was suicidal a loooooong time ago, I'm long over that, though. I'm sure you can tell that my skill at the time was effected by my age, as I was still a kid when I wrote this. But hey, as like the last one, any and all criticism is appreciated.

Jesus CK... it really is over 9000.... lol [/epicfail]

If you're going to comment only on how emo it is (basically copying what I said ), gtfo.

lol. Bro, you must have really been feeling some heavy shit... seriously... I feel for ya though, I really do. I can relate.

*Stretches* Damn, It's slightly more emo then mine.
*Would comment on something other than the emo-ness, but I don't see anything to say. And no I will not gtfo.*

Storm wrote:

lol. Bro, you must have really been feeling some heavy shit... seriously... I feel for ya though, I really do. I can relate.

Life's a bitch at times. I'll say nothing but that.

Twizdid wrote:

*And no I will not gtfo.*

... You won this round.

TheOriginalOne-CK wrote:

Twizdid wrote:

*And no I will not gtfo.*

... You won this round.

Didn't take much effort. =/

IT'S OVER 9000! D;
<3 the poem

WHAT 9000?!

Thanks. I didn't think anyone would, really.

TheOriginalOne-CK wrote:

Thanks. I didn't think anyone would, really.

Hmm, well I do too.
I knew there was something I was forgetting to say.

Again, thanks. Maybe I'm underestimating myself by a slight amount... I still find this one the worst of my "work", though.